crazyfoolstiney | Tear it all Down -- End!Verse Dean/Castiel Fanmix (Reply)

Fandom: Supernatural
Subject: End!Verse Dean/Castiel fanmix for

waywardmixes OTP round.
Title: Tear it all Down
Rating: R
Warnings/Notes: Of course I can't do a mix with regular Dean/Castiel. No, I've got to run with all my End!Verse head canon and ramp the angst up to a thousand. I'm sorry.
Spoilers for S4.01 - S5.04. Songs contain language. Head canon sprinkled throughout has mentions of mutual intimate partner violence, sexual content and drug and alcohol abuse.
Green quotes are mine from We don't get to be... All others come from Supernatural episode S5:04,The End.

Dean Winchester, the Righteous Man and Castiel, the angel who pulled him from the pit have a very a profound bond. They've fought along side and for each other against Heaven and Hell and everything inbetween.

But after Dean says no to being Michael's vessel even as Sam says yes to Lucifer, that bond is tested and twisted.

Dean is ruthlessly set on his revenge and killing Lucifer.
Castiel, no longer an angel but a mortal man drowning himself in drugs, alcohol and orgies.

Both broken and abandoned by Heaven with only each other left as a reminder of how forsaken they are.

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Dean: "You don't have to cuff me. What, you don't trust yourself?"
Future!Dean: "No. Absolutely not."

Wasted – Stabbing Westward

When I reach the end
Will anything I've done
Mean anything?
Will anything I've done mean anything?

"Dean, I'm not an angel anymore. Yeah, I went mortal."

Disgrace – Sevendust

Can I still find a place where my mind stops all the suffering
Will I live in my disgrace on and on
And I know now all I ever wanted
Was peace inside a mind that's always haunted

This was all they had left.

No longer the Righteous Man gripped tight.

Hurt – Johnny Cash

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real

No more Angel of the Lord that raised him from Perdition.

My Body is a Cage – Arcade Fire

I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head

All that remained was the skewed, twisted pantomime of that bond
as they dove into each other with fists and fucking.

Love is not Enough – Nine Inch Nails

Hey, the closer we think we are
Well it only got us so far
Now you got anything left to show
No no I didn't think so

Both of them trying to fill the holes with each injury inflicted on the other.

Tearing it all down for the sake of sanity, no matter how temporary.

Something I Can Never Have – Nine Inch Nails

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.

Future!Dean to Cas: "Are you coming?"
Cas: "Of course."

Save Me – Staind

The end is near
I'm in the thick of it
And I'll be there soon
If you can handle it

"Took me five years. Tonight I'm gonna kill the Devil."

Mad World – Gary Jules

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had

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